Actually an Artist

Welcome back! It’s been quite the hiatus. I went into a bit of a self-work/self-growth phase back in 2021, and only recently started feeling the pull to put myself back out there. I’m hoping that means I have something to offer! Wouldn’t it be grand if things worked like that every time? OK OK, I DO think I have something to offer, but that doesn’t mean it’s everyone’s cup of tea, and it’s scary admitting it to myself. Let’s get to it.

Two years ago, I was going through the ringer. Seriously. Pandemic+husband losing his job+mental health challenges+rejoining the workforce+self growth+spiritual direction+parenting+marriage growth and tumult… We’re great now! But it was HARD. It felt like death and resurrection, though it took a few hard weeks and months to admit that. Then when I did, I saw a template for such a journey in Jesus. It got me started on a bit of a deconstruction of what my faith had been, how I’d interpreted it, and lived/worked it (because I’m primarily an organist/church employee). Turned into a BIG deconstruction. (Actually, even a little deconstruction is probably big.) Change is hard! Change is a major part of what the life of Jesus mirrors for us. If you’re not with me on this, that’s ok! It’s something you may need to experience for yourself to really ‘get,’ but that’s kind of what I’m reorienting myself towards supporting.

SO here I am a few years and another baby later (we had our daughter, Juniper, last August!), happier, healthier, still finding new ways to deconstruct. Finding new ways to understand and follow Jesus. But also proofed by the fire. That’s a big theme that I want to explore here, because until I experienced it, I didn’t understand it and I certainly didn’t see any benefit to it. This isn’t to say I spiritualize suffering, but I DO see the integration of what I experienced into my life now, and honestly I’m really thankful for it.

So if you’re someone who resonates with ANY of this, please feel free to join in. I realize this is a bit cryptic, but more will be coming as I feel the tug to put it out there. In the mean time, I’m working on redoing my website, and played around with some logo ideas. Here’s the first attempt I’m putting out there to be the little icon for this website. Thoughts?

Thanks for reading, and leave me a note! -Heather